what has this got to do with 'which disney princess are you?'

6. What do you eat on a daily basis?
Cabbage soup with crushed Vicodin and Prozac.
Nutrisystem and moderate balanced meals.
Vegetarian or seafood; sushi is a must.
60% carbs, 20% protein, 20% fats: for the energy to keep up with a busy lifestyle.
Whatever I want to eat, food is my other lover.

FREAKIN HILARIOUS>

If i was to be honest. Im probably the last one. What a crackup!!

But if wanted to sound cool. The reality is, I am probably number 3.
HA!

screaming kids & things arent as bad as they seem

ok. thursday mornings are a stretch for me. I have these new swim babies classes i take. i think i have a new appreciation for motherhood parenting and what kind of parent i would HATE to be.
complaining mothers, taking out their repressed anger on their children and subsequent swimming teachers is a DEFINATE NO NO! I am all for constructive feedback and improving systems... but when things are just a bit haywire... people- please!! get a grip!

in general though, nicer parents are raving about their kids new teacher - who is animated somewhat (go figure!) and are telling my managers about it which is SUPER DUPER!

so thats my vent for today.

i did end up going to meet a new recruitment agent yesterday. I was dreading the thought. but it was MUCH better than i anticipated. this lady actually WANTS to help me find a job! thats freaking AMAZING. I will take it as a gift from above and she actually gave me some helpful advice with tidying my CV and was nice enough to even let me know how well presented i appeared. at least im doing something right! the job sector is back in events/ marketing. hopefully there will be something appealing that comes along.

meanwhile. im just counting down the days til the end of term! cant wait! then im off to see my sister get married.

who enjoys rejection?

i got turned down for an interview today.
:( that sucks.
usually im onto this sort of stuff. apparently i dont have enough 'design' experience! ARGH!!!!! gimme a break people!

the job doesnt even require a design background!!!!!!! (although it would help)

also. i went to see a careers counsellor today to see if they would help.

why do i bother? she was nice. but really. when i left, i felt more bewildered and with more questions than i did when i got there.

more research she thinks. ok.

however. on a lighter note... i got 88% for my Austswim Exam.

Yes. My brain still works!!!!!!

and if i was glass half empty i would rejoice in the fact that i only got 12% incorrect! which is cool :)

haha

its been an eventful week.

i successfully endured a 2 hour exam tonight.
i think the coffee is only kicking in now. darnit! its nearly 1am. i need to get to bed.

Hopefully after tonite's exam (i havent sat an exam in a few years since 2004?!)

I was freaking exhausted.

and... it was all about swimming instructing.

Wanna know the three types of water resistence?
My acronyms were working for me to rejig the memory.
F.E.S (Fried Eggs, Salsa)

1. Frontal
2. Eddy Turbulence (this one always made me laugh-- Eddy!?! ha!)
3. Skin/ Frictional

I only need 60%+ to pass!

and...
Thanks to David for an inspiring cut/copy of MLK and enlightening me at Mil and Martin's housewarming :) I had fun!

6 weeks

6 weeks.
for a while now, its almost been a bit of a blur to imagine how a year seems to pass by.
at least... its actually less daunting than i used to think.

6 weeks til i head to holland to the land of clogs and windmills and to celebrate with my sister and to be husband... and hopefully get the chance to see the van gogh museum ( i love art) have a hash brownie or two (jokes?!!?) and get the chance to travel to venice, prague and looks like berlin... and then to england.

i cant complain... although ive been a place that has made me somewhat apprehensive about it all... im beginning to smell it.

oh wait... thats just the burnt toast!

and despite other reports. things are good. they actually are really good.

cheering up depression...

challenged to stop asking why

to live in the moment perhaps?

i sometimes think i think too much.

and when i get really into my own head (beware)... i often start thinking thoughts into another dimension.... and ask too many big questions.

thats why i need friends-- like you guys... to keep me grounded.

bring me back to planet earth. yes.

can we talk about the banal and the superficial now? my head hurts.

urban dictionary. you make me laugh!

The word for May 11 is nut huggers

really tight jeans worn by a man

Damn Bell's got his nut huggers on today

exciting new roof!

this is the progress on the roof of the kitchen our team built at suubi village near kampala, Uganda, Africa (sept 2007) for watoto

very exciting!!! i cant believe the roof is on! the progress is slower than some have expected, but for me... in all honesty... at least stuff is being done!!! hopefully it will be finished by september 2008. that would be amazing!

i watched 20 episodes of season 5 scrubs back to back

being sick has its plusses. (i hate being sick-- its the inactivity that kills me, but hey, i dug up season 5 of back to back scrubs! yay!)

favourite scenes:

'kung fu fighting'

'when jd's scooter gets shot at at the convenience store and when he hits a water pot hole and disappears under the road completely.'

'elliot's hilariously crazy ' mexican apple picker' fantasy'

'jd turning 30 and trying to finish the triathlon'....

ah.... so many good pointers! anybody got season 6?

i (heart) cherry blossoms

my bro is in hokkaido, japan at the moment touring the whole spring time cherry blossoms!
im so jealous! he's sent some pics back
i will have to go back one day when they bloom-- its a big celebration over there! Spring Time!!!

is a pet a 'want' or a 'need'?

i used to have dogs.
i now have swung to liking cats. (gasp! says the dog lovers)
i have owned pet fish.

ive thought of buying a bird.

i love animals.

is a pet a 'want'? or a 'need'?

they keep you company... especially dogs... just when you need it. no questions asked.

"I need someone who believes that the sun will rise again, but who does not fear my darkness. Someone who can point out the rocks in my way without making me a child by carrying me. Someone who can stand in thunder and watch the lightning and believe in a rainbow." ~Fr. Joe Mahoney

it was dad's birthday on may 3rd. it was his 72nd birthday. happy birthday Dad!

"Text Support"

i love urban dictionary:

The word for May 06 is Text Support

Advice, encouragement delivered via text... frequently related to dating and boss hating. Pronounced like tech support.

Hey, thanks for all the text support last night! I have a coffee date with him today.

where is home?

so... i read somewhere that those whose take on life is more inherent on 'realism' or 'reality' tend to lean towards depression.

great.

is that whats been happening?

so... how do i get myself back to being happy (knowing full well, that it is indeed most oftentimes, a choice)...

do i need to be slightly delusional to gain that sense of happy?

searching the scriptures gives a sense of hope. but im not sure about happinness.

i like tea- and reading books- to escape.

distractions. good company. beautiful landscapes. new destinations. makes me happy.

lately. because of so many changes... ive realised that there is joy to be found in the familiar. i think i used to loathe it... because i labelled it unfairly 'boring'. but really... it is comforting.

put it this way... im coming from a place where most recently, the house i grew up in has been completely flattened, demolished. i had a dream about it the other night. it was strange, surreal and frankly... a little unsettling. i think its because the house reminded me so much of my Dad, that to see the house completely gone, and just a pile of dirt, was something similar to looking at a bomb site. That is probably why i am finding it so comforting to visit friend's homes-- people and places that ive known for a long time. Because its familiar. Because... it feels like home.

everybody loves ramen

everybody loves ramen

hilarious. i bought a t-shirt with this on it.

i love play on words. and i love ramen! (wasnt THAT keen on the original 'raymond' series, but hey... a little bit of pop culture never hurt no body!!)

sometimes. you just gotta laugh.

you know when life gets so serious and you wonder sometimes how it got this way? life is absurd. really! plus...

im tired... im also sick... with the flu. great.

i just finished this book

it was needed... as hard as it is for me to realise that sometimes life is just a series of crap shituations

i need to work on building my happiness levels big time!

for someone who is so used to being a generally happy person. im going to give myself a pat on the back for not being too much of a sad -sack... considering.

you know... sometimes... i struggle to let myself be sad. because you know? oh, who likes to be sad?! i certainly dont... but sometimes. things just are sad!! but im learning... very slowly... that its totally ok.

because in the long term. if you dont let your emotions just be--- (anger, happinness, resentment, joy, confusion, pain etc) you go numb... cos grief... which is what ive been experiencing... is a necessary form of growth... it cant be rushed. oh. its painful. heck... its not even funny.

but boy oh boy... do i try!!

thanks for hanging in dear blog readers. i know my posts havent been as 'minivanmegaFUN' as one would like it to be of late.

so... to bring back the Van... ill talk about things that i enjoy to bring it back to something more fun.

Movies. now... i cant wait for this new 'Get Smart' film to come out! I love the original series! i Hope to get them on dvd one day... who can forget agent 99 and the cone of silence? the shoe phone? i love it.